Horizon Fireless

My light is dark
but with possible light
I
had
the time of my life
with you
those nights
to keep me whole
and enlightened
confidentially
frightened
My everything
is miles away
and I am here
writing to a ghost.
Here to this day
but making
the most
quickly riding away
But staying in place
Craving
the taste
I'd die to swallow
I pity
and wallow
in the sorrow i hate
yet love
I crave
every country mile
believing in the smiles
you caused
but with distance paused
So much pride
I choose to ride
through
my clouds
of doubt
maybe figure out
to you in poetry
what I hoped you always
would be
lovely
there for me
not discretely
Not secretly
only
absolutely
waiting
trying
believing
your truth in me
i bruise everywhere
when you are not there
still in my heart
but not by my side
wish I had a hundred dollars
for every time
my body cried
harder than my eyes

I want nothing more
than
to give up unsurely
so purely
the way I did
to someone who deserves it
Whose waited for me
the way I waited for you
the years I spent
clutching virtue

Last night
I was awake
until 6:00 A.M.
THINKING
about one person
and many things.
Many possibilities
No ease
could send me to sleep
Just give me
dreams
I envy
and will
see
Unfold.

So easy all along
to just give in to me
Hold your breath and
dive in

But now a time of the worst
consists of distance
and wonder
Love not going under
Staying afloat
as my faith
many times wrote
you
me
futuristically
Everything I do
every single day
makes sense
in way
I cannot explain
Don't need to
cause he knows
now
that I am
the One
and have been all along
told him through my songs
I am holding on strong.